#Transparency: God’s Word Isn’t Enough

#​TransparencyFiles: God’s Word Isn’t Enough… For Me.

There are so many great songs that talk about the power of receiving a word from God. I’ve listened to them, sung along, agreed and even memorized a few. But on my faith walk, I find myself more like Thomas or maybe even the children who came out of Egypt… God’s word isn’t enough to sustain me. I mean, sure, I intellectually know that he’s done great things for me. I can feel the power of his presence moving in an atmosphere. I know when an encouraging sermon has uplifted my spirit. But if I’m going to be completely honest, sometimes God, who has never changed, is not enough.

I swing like a pendulum between my-way and his word, between what I see and what he said; between what’s happening in the present and what’s to come… And I throw up my hands with disgust. I’m not supposed to be THAT Christian. Sure, my actions may be the same — I haven’t made a move that contradicts what God said, but what about my mind? After all, it’s rarely about what we "do," but about how we think. If the enemy can get my thinking off course, it’s only a matter of time until my actions follow suit. I don’t care WHICH story you pull from the 66 great books, every failure of humanity first started in the thinker.

"So stop thinking." — Problem solved. Right? Nope. Wrong. Asking a human to stop thinking is to turn off the very thing that makes them go. I can’t stop thinking more than you can change the color of your skin. If you’re going to do it, it’s going to require intervention of something OUTSIDE of yourself. Which means, I have to get outside of me. In this battle for brain-real estate (which by the way controls my emotions, decisions, and environments), I have to go deep within me. God says that "deep calls to deep," and in getting deeper than my skin (aka flesh), I have to willingly submit, my mind. . . . with it’s flaws.

I don’t know how this process works for you, but for me it’s like this:

1) Get some place quiet & likely away from the internet 😉

2) Think about the current thing that has me stumbling to apply what God has said

3) Admit that I’m having trouble simply standing on what God said. And this is the part I love and hate the most. In this part, I see how deviously off my ways can be. For example, God word says "the righteous have good days on the earth" but my relative isn’t having good days and, in fact, the reports aren’t getting better. So in admitting to God how I’m having trouble, I see all the ways I’ve tried to help the situation or, spoken less than God’s word "well she’s just getting older and these things sometimes happen…." Even my casual conversation betrays (or portrays *cringe*) what I believe as true… If God said it, then my corresponding action should be to apply what he said and only what he said right? But that’s not what happens. :/ So G and I walk through all of the ways I can stumble at his word in my regularly scheduled life… how clumsy I am in guarding my thoughts and how hands-off I am with managing my mouth that gives life to situations.

4) I get real about me. Because of #3, I usually end up having an attitude adjustment about how I see myself with respect to the word of God. It’s clear that the trouble isn’t with God….So that means…. yeah. adjustments necessary. And this is the fun part. I always find that life drags me down. But when I think about and discover God’s word (which comes to me through the bible, dreams, and through other believers) for me, I get juiced up on hope. And this hope isn’t based on what I can see. No, it’s based on something that’s working beyond this realm, and for me, that’s just the type of foundation I need.

5) I ask God to seal the moment of time with him in my heart. I don’t want to lose the precious faith that I gained in the presence of God. So I ask him to mark it on my heart so that I am forever changed by the encounter with him. I live in this revelation and ask him for continued courage to do what I need to do, when I need to do it. That’s super important.

God’s word then becomes enough to correct my current course of action & change the future less-than-great decision I would’ve made in an instant….and we all know how critical some instances are (queues up the scene in the garden of Adam & Eve).

Okay — I’m off to do some more apply of words that are now enough!



Me, One of Many.

Everyone has a unique life. Tragedy, triumph, guts and glory. There are some that live life that likely are different from families/friends. And typically those people try and help those around us. Enter me. One of many. We share the blessings that have come our way, feeling like this is the way to help others who have been less fortunate. We share the things which came through experience, hardwork or grace (shared typically in the form of opportunity/money or knowledge). Sometimes our road is a road made smooth by tears, or a foundation made solid by sacrifice. Other times it’s a path made rich by favor. No matter how it comes, we freely give.

No matter how many times I hear the story that ends in tragedy, it always breaks my heart to see someone who’s extended them self for another, and the situation end poorly for both parties. The sharer doesn’t get the benefit of seeing the participant succeed, and the participant doesn’t realize the full benefit of what’s in front of them. For me, it’s tragic. While my life was rich in many areas, some of the other areas people deem ‘critical,’ were poor. I think about the ways I’ve offered talents, time, money, knowledge, or other resources to those around me, and my story is just as tragic as the ones I heard shared by my great friend this weekend. It breaks my heart because no one walks into the situation with bad intentions. But within the scope of humanity we experience what we experience, and produce what we produce. Unfortunately, everyone can’t go in the direction of your growth. And “your” in this case means you, me, anyone attempting to bring people along WITH them. Obviously this isn’t a catch all, but it is a story I’m learning is much more common than I originally thought.

And it’s more common because the people who achieve and desire to share are a particular TYPE of personality. They’re the type of person who may have $100,000+ sitting in stock and want to share with you their trade secrets. They’re the type who managed to get internships without experience then start at an above entry level job and want to share with you how they did it. They’re the type that sees the LIMITATION of their humanity. They know it’s not by their own merit that they achieved. But, the universal truth still applies here. Opposites attract. For as much ambition/drive/intelligence/reason/fill-in-the-slash that they have, the sad stories show that who they invest most heavily in, do not possess those same traits. While it’s not a crime, it’s something that we can all learn by observing.

Life has no handouts. While you’re shaking your head and agreeing, life also takes no prisoners. Sometimes the situations we find ourselves in, will propel or execute us, off of ONE decision. As I grow in life, I learn that it’s vitally important to know who to listen to, who to grow with, who to tell your secrets to, and more over, who to entrust your time with. I don’t have it all figured out. But for such a crucial time as the one we live in, I’ve got a squad that won’t let me down. I appreciate yall :).

For everyone else who’s just like me, one of the many — I FEEL YOU. It’s hard to put yourself out there, consistently showing who you are to the world and have the cruelty of the humanity that’s close to you greet your sharing with the bottom of their boot. BUT, in the end, we win. We always have something to give, while those who just ‘take’ eventually run out of resources to procure from. I rest on these thoughts while I say prayers for those who I know are like me. I pray less pressure on your shoulders, more wisdom in your eyes and more warmth about your work, in your hearts.

Love yall, -trishaLicia